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Inspiration! Or is writing in first person from a guy’s point of view really that hard?

Let me give you this artsy photo of Pierre Bouvier to inspire you…in some way.  Not sure how, but just go with it.
So, thanks to random Simple Plan happenings I finally got some inspiration for Jars of Clay.  No, no relation to the band.  Jars of Clay is my latest Simple Plan story.  By latest, I began writing it a year ago when I was in one of my most creative periods.  I came up with several other ideas during that period as well, none of which are cooperating with me at the moment. 

To be honest, if the guys weren’t in the studio, this particular story may have stagnated; but seeing the photo updates from the studio has given me a push and dropped ideas in my mind again.

Pause to enjoy this photo of Pat, Chuck and Pierre….

Anyway, that’s actually not what I wanted to touch on in this post.  Jars of Clay is written in first person point of view, which isn’t as easy as some would think.  First of all, writing from this pov means you can only write from the pov’s point of view.  So, you can’t get inside the head of other characters.  I found that difficult when I began writing years ago, but I’ve improved sight unseen.

The other thing that was the norm in the early days of my writing was that I tended to write from the female perspective, or when I did switch to a male there was no discernible difference.  Which made for wooden characters.  Now though, I believe I’m improving my ability to give my characters their own voice.  It’s still not easy and I’m sure most of my narrators still have some of me in them, but I’m trying.  
But the biggest thing is trying to write in the voice of a male.  Without sounding like a female trying to write as a male…if you get my meaning.  I mean, maybe I should just take a leaf out of that author who wrote A Song of Ice and Fire and remind myself that I am writing from the perspective of a person who has wants and needs and desires and goals that are all their own and no one else’s.  And not worry too much about gender, except when it comes to those things only certain genders can do.  If you know what I mean…  
I’m not really sure where I’m going with this, so have one more unnecessary photo of Simple Plan. 

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Jars of Clay – Simple Plan Fanfiction – Chapter One

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The ending is not the beginning repeating

Los Angeles
9th May 2014


Pierre called me. A first in a million years. I know. Exaggeration, but seriously. It’s not like we really had much to talk about in the last…lifetime. Not really. Not after all the lies. The betrayal. The hurt. Which, to be fair, wasn’t my fault. Nor his. It wasn’t anyone’s fault, really. Well, not anyone that actually mattered.

David once said to me that it was the industry that was the problem. Profound for someone who had difficulty pinning things down at the best of times. Though at the same time not surprising, since he is a creative at heart. Pierre is too. Chuck on the other hand is a more logical person and that’s why he and Pierre clashed at the moments that counted. Seb and Jeff? Well, they were, are, a mix. And, oddly they were the least effected. Or, apparently so.

Anyway… Pierre called me. Wanting to talk. About an idea he had. Oh, and the fact that it was his birthday and he wanted to catch up.

I’m thirty-five, Pat…and none of us are getting any younger… His words. And, so true. Though sometimes I feel a hundred years old after everything that’s happened.

I guess I’m not making much sense, am I? What am I even talking about? Well, perhaps I should start by saying that this is a story about a band. No. That’s wrong. It’s a story about five young men who thought they were a band. I mean, they were a band. But…it’s complicated.

Oh, and it’s my story too. Though, I’m more a bystander than anything. Pierre would vehemently disagree with that. And so would the fans. They call me the sixth member of Simple Plan. Kind of them…and not something I take lightly.

I see myself more as the person who’s here to tell their story. Makes sense, right? I was their web guy, and merch guy, and videographer, before they went all pro…well, before management pushed me out. I’m not bitter. Many would say I’d be entitled to the emotion. I gather they just didn’t want me looking too closely. Not that they needed to worry about me.

Pierre Bouvier was the crack in the perfect vessel that the Label had created…

* * *

I was telling you Pierre called me, and I never did get to the point, did I? Well, we talked about banal things, as you do. And then Pierre dropped the bombshell.

Chuck and I are getting together to write songs.

I’m still trying to get my head around that.

The traffic right now is going slow as I sit here on the highway. However, it’s still going faster than my brain. I’m on my way to Pierre’s to find out what the Hell is going on. I don’t even want to hazard a guess… it’s too shocking if I’m going to be completely honest about it.

My phone buzzed at me. Shifting gears and checking my Bluetooth connection, I answered with a grunt.

“Where are you?” Pierre.

“Stuck in traffic, dude.” I grimaced at the long line of cars ahead of me, no end in sight. “I’ll be there when I can…”

“Get some beer; David just rocked up in a complete mess.” Pierre sounded distracted, which wouldn’t be surprising if what he said was true.

“David’s in L.A.?” I said and shook my head, squeezing the steering wheel.

“Yeah. He lives here, remember?”

I scratched my cheek as I finally passed the tollbooth. “I didn’t forget. He was away.”

Pierre scoffed and said, “Right. Well, see you soon.” He hung up after that and I heaved a sigh as I continued to wait for the traffic to move.

* * * * *

A million years later… well, again, not really… and I could see the apartments where Pierre lived with his special girl. No, he hasn’t a girlfriend. I’m referring to Delilah his Chihuahua. I sat for a moment in the guest parking chewing over what I was likely to witness. And as I sat there a beat up rental pulled up next to me, and a familiar bald scalp came into view. I blinked then rolled down my window.

“Stinco?”

Jeff halted next to my window and smiled as he said, sounding equally as surprised, “Pat? Did Pierre call you too?”

I nodded as I got out of my car. “He tell you what he’s up to?”

“Yeah, and I don’t get it. But, guess we’ll find out what’s doing, eh?”

Slapping my palms together, I felt like my head was going to fall off my shoulders as I made my way for the entrance.

Pierre was standing there. He must’ve seen us pull into the parking bays.

“Dude, where’s the beer?”

I groaned, shaking my head and slapping him on the shoulder as I walked past him. “Hi to you too, Pierre.”

He half smiled as he tapped his fist to Jeff’s. “Took your time.”

I rolled my eyes as I took the stairs to his floor two at a time; his statement wasn’t even worth a response. And, I really just wanted to get this over with. Whatever this even was.

“And you couldn’t even get the beer.”

Stopping at the top of the stairs, I turned to face him, feeling this sudden wave of anger rush through me. Irrational, I know, but I had just driven for God knew how long to find out what the Hell he was up to and I was in no mood to be treated as if this was some normal visit.

His pupils dilated as he must’ve seen some of what I was feeling flash across my face.

“Fuck you, Bouv. I didn’t come over here to be nagged.” Pierre recoiled at my words, opening his mouth to protest; but I didn’t let him get a word in. “If you want me to stay, you could at least be civil.” I turned and stomped into his apartment, not realising a shocked David was standing just by the door.

I only realised when he was suddenly wrapped around my shoulders and his too loud voice was in my ear.

“Hey, dude! Dude! You’re finally here!”

I smiled as I managed to extricate myself from his arms and turned to face him. David hadn’t changed, much. His hair was longer, though. And he looked older. But, didn’t we all?

“David.” I couldn’t really think of anything to say, so just nodded at him. He didn’t seem fazed, though, grinning at me before spinning on his heels and heading further into the apartment.

I followed him into a spacious living room, dominated by the grand piano that Pierre had purchased in a fit of passion a couple of years earlier. I remembered asking him why he bothered. He just shrugged and said he thought it looked cool…

David plopped himself down on the bench, kicking his feet out.

“Been a long time, man.”

I nodded as I remained standing in the middle of the room. “Yeah, I never did call you.” And I felt bad about it.

“You were hurt as much as the rest of us,” Pierre said as he and Jeff joined us. If that wasn’t the truth, I really don’t know what was. But, I believed I’d moved on from all that.

I shook my head, slowly. “It’s no excuse, though.”

Pierre clapped a hand to my shoulder and said, “Maybe not. But you always come back to us.” My brow furrowed at his words. He gave me a meaningful look as Chuck walked through the door that lead to the kitchen, carrying a case of beer.

“Hey, Pat…a little help here?”

I allowed myself a small chuckle as I went over to relieve him of his load. He heaved a sigh and smiled at me muttering his thanks. I nodded, setting the case down on top of the piano. David raised his eyebrows at me. I ignored him as I snagged a bottle and turned to face Chuck, and Pierre.

The latter was leaning against the large windows, facing away from me, his brows down over his eyes, expression dark.

“You going to talk, Bouv?” I said. His shoulders lifted as his eyes slewed toward me.

“Must think I’m crazy, Pat. After what I said.”

I smirked. “You and Chuck, writing.”

Pierre tilted his chin down. “Oui. You know how things were between us.” He rubbed at the back of his neck. A nervous gesture, I knew. He closed his eyes then said, “We’ve come a long way from the kids we were back then…”

I had to agree with that.

We were too young to know what we really wanted back then.

Too young.

Too naïve…
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Jars of Clay – Simple Plan FanFiction – Master Post

So, I would love to share with you one of my band fictions.  This is one I began writing last year almost a year ago.  I’m only just getting back into it as I’ve had no inspiration.  But, for some reason inspiration struck today.  So, here we go.

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Jars of Clay

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The band is manufactured and the world doesn’t know it. Pierre Bouvier is beginning to become disillusioned with the charade and cracks are beginning to show.

This story will be recounted by the band’s closest friend and confidant, Patrick Langlois, and will document the rise and fall of one of the most beloved pop punk bands in the world.

For like jars of clay, they were broken, discarded…but Pierre isn’t going to give up on them. He is going to pick up the pieces and put them back together again. To create a beautiful, real, thing.

  1. The ending is not the beginning repeating
Posted in Anzac Day, Anzac100, It don't do movie reviews, my thoughts

The Water Diviner – "I don’t do movie reviews" review

Emotional.  Beautiful.  Rugged.  

The opening scene, in the Turkish trenches, makes a big statement that this is not your typical ANZAC movie.  It’s something different.  Obviously.
And then Russell Crowe…maybe a little oddly if you don’t know one of his first movies, his first scene made me feel some childhood nostalgia.  He even has a Koolie this time round too.  (A type of Australian working dog – the movie I’m thinking of is The Silver Brumby; he had a Koolie then too)
Russell’s Joshua Connor is raw, real, a man who is not afraid to do everything to find his sons.   Though the movie starts off being about his story of searching for his sons, it is obvious that is a much bigger story and in a sense it seems to be more a story about the war from the Turkish side.  
The woman he meets at the hotel he is led to has lost her husband to the war and her story becomes entwined with that of Connor’s.  
And then the Turkish officers that Joshua “befriends” in a sense.  Seeing the events of Lone Pine from their perspective and the war that is still going on in the former Ottoman Empire is heart wrenching and extremely moving.
This feels like a movie about lost love, and the importance of remembering those who have lost their lives on both sides of the war.  It’s also about hope.  
I know this review doesn’t make much sense, but it’s late at night; been put together piecemeal as I watch, and I’m crying because it’s so beautiful and moving and yes…. Ugly crying.
Best movie.  

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30 Day Blogging Challenge – Day 8

Something you’re currently worrying about

To be honest? I’m worrying about my health, which isn’t hard to do considering the way my body is at the moment.  Feels like my hundredth bad cold in the last few months; my hand kinda swelled up probably due to having my bandage on too tight; and my left knee/leg is giving me grief.  
What is there not to worry about?  On top of that it worries me when it makes other people worry about me.  If that makes any sense.  
I don’t know.  I try not to let things worry me too much.  When I do feel like I’m worrying too much I stop and pause and remember that I don’t have to do this alone.  I have God.  And I have my family and friends.  
But it is easy to get down on oneself.  I feel I’m letting myself down and others sometimes.  I mean, I know I can’t control getting sick but I’ve already had so much time off work….it makes me feel bad.  I mean, it’s the hazard of working in my chosen profession, but it doesn’t make it any easier to feel good about it.
I love my job; that’s a given but you would think that over the four almost five years I’ve been in the industry I’d have built an immunity to getting really sick.  
It sucks that I get sick so easily and then add this whole getting tendinitis thing in my left wrist and the whole of my left side of my body being stuffed-ish.  It’s frustrating.
So, yeah that’s what’s worrying me.  My health and how its impacting my ability to work and actually enjoy my work life and feel like I’m contributing to my full potential.  
(I know there’s nothing to feel bad about.  If I’m sick, I’m sick and there’s no point in making it worse and/or making everyone else sick)
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30 Day Blogging Challenge – Day 7

Your opinion on cheating on people.

This shouldn’t even be an opinion.  It should be a fact:
CHEATING ON SOMEONE IS WRONG. End of.  
There is NO excuse to cheat on the person whom has trusted their heart to you.  
Let’s set aside the notion of an open relationship because in that situation cheating isn’t an issue.  (Though I don’t agree with open relationships…I think that defeats the purpose of a relationship with someone.)
Cheating causes harm.  If you’re in a situation where you think that cheating is ok…if your relationship has got to such a point that you believe it’s the only way out…then you have a problem.
Don’t allow your relationship to get to this point.  Instead TALK to your partner, work through the issues together, and if you finally cannot reconcile your issues, then make the decision to part ways.  
Do NOT cheat.  It is not the solution.  
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30 Day Blogging Challenge – Day 6

The person that you like and why you like them

The person I like? Is this in reference to the person I’m in a relationship with because if so….

That would be my boyfriend.  On an aside it sounds weird saying boyfriend, considering our ages….
Anyway, this isn’t answering the question.  So…why I like them.  Well, let’s get something clear, first.
Liking and loving someone are actually separate things.  You can love someone without liking them.  But, it’s hard to like someone you don’t love.  With that in mind, here’s why I like my man.
He gets me. Even when I don’t understand myself.  By that, I mean he can tell when something is going on with me and he draws me out when I need it most.  And I think that’s a great thing.
To think we’ve been together just under four months and he gets me like that.
Oh and I like his beard 😉
Haha. 🙂 
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30 Day Blogging Challenge – Day 5

5 things that irritate you about the opposite/same sex

I think I’m going to just change this to 5 things that irritate me about other people because I honestly can’t think of ten things that irritate me about specific genders.

I don’t think I can even think of five.

Anyway, here goes…
What irritates me about people? 
First of all, people who cut you off on the road for no reason at all.  Basically Perth drivers irritate me….
Second, people who are arrogant and think they are all that.  When really they’re not.
Third, know-it-alls.  I am guilty of being this type of person though, so I’m trying not to judge.  
Four, atheists who verbally attack Christians for their beliefs.
Five, anti-vaccine advocates.  
Well that was actually quite easy… 
And definitely pertinent to my thoughts at the moment.  


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30 Day Blogging Challenge – Day 4

What you wear to bed

Getting really personal, hey?
Well this really depends on the season, or weather, or what I feel like.  But, generally I wear nighties, or pyjamas,  or tracksuit pants if it’s really cold, like last night.  Even with my electric blanket on…
When it’s really hot…well.  Usually just a light nighty.  Though, if I’m going to be entirely honest, I have on occasion gone just the underwear route.  
Too much information?
Well, I am into honesty.  🙂